ONLY GOD.

The Journey, The Adventure & The Thoughts.

Faith is spelled R I S K I heard. And I can say that the last couple years of my life have been full of Faith, Risk and Adventure. Along with all that comes a lot of other stuff as well like misunderstanding, detours, and twists and turns that not even I fully understand sometimes. But As I pursue God and walk in His Grace and His Love all else fades away and becomes meaningless except to fully be known in relationship to my Heavenly Papa. One thing I’v come to recently is the simplicity of just knowing that I am forever captured in the arms of a Good Daddy and have received the gift of ‘Living Forever’ as a free gift. All my life I have felt inadequate, not good enough, not religious enough, not spiritual enough and different in my thoughts and dreams and relationship with God. But God in His Goodness created me for His OWN purposes. He likes me. He Loves me. And I like Him and Love Him back just the same…maybe not the way people want me to but the way He wants me to. 

In the midst of my great adventures these past couple years I have ran into more failures, more loss and more dead ends and more detours and more road blocks then ever before and to the point that I have wondered if God was trying to kill me or something. I am still in that place today and yet I know that all my wanderings and adventure has kept me ALIVE and seeking His voice and His voice alone at every twist and turn. Amazing adventures He has given to me…impossible ones…difficult ones…fun ones…Amazing moments and Amazing times in the midst of plenty of heart ache as well. Death and Life all at once! 

Today I feel blessed, Blessed to have suffered along the way and blessed to have Lived along the way! I don’t understand all the detours, road blocks and twists and turns but I trust the voice that says..”This is the way…walk in it” even when it twists and turns and detours me on a path that seems to get narrower and narrower. One moment I am on what looks like a 5 lane freeway headed in one direction and then Bam I hit a construction zone in the distance with flashing yellow arrows shutting down 2 lanes and causing me to stay to the left. I keep journeying ahead and see that 2 more lanes are closing down so that puts me all the way in the left…slowed down and wondering if I took the wrong route. But I plow ahead for a bit wondering if this one lane will lead me back to the wide open freeway and confirm my direction. But it doesn’t….before long this left lane is shutting down and barricading my way and my journey…EXIT NOW is the only sign leading to another road and I groan inside at yet another DETOUR sign! I question my journey….I question the Captain of the journey….I question His voice and I ‘damn’ the road blocks. With no way through the barricades I obey the many signs….and Exit. The road is a one laner…The road is narrow…my gps doesn’t work…my map on the seat is no good now. I can only trust the voice. His voice. I am strangely peaceful…not knowing why or how or what this journey is going to look like now. I pull over to take a break….and His presence floods over me like a warm rain on dry land. And He gave me this scripture,

“Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a fraction of a penny. Calling His disciples to Him, Jesus said, “I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. They all gave out of their wealth, but she, out of her poverty, put in everything- all that she had to live on.” Mark 12:41-43

I love His Presence:) I Love His Rest:) And I Love the Peace that passes ALL Understanding and I love that He has taken me off the 5 lane freeway and onto a simpler road…A road that far more fits me and pleases Him.